~Suzy~

To sum it all up..

2006-10-16T04:01:14Z

In the past month...

I have had my heart broken
I have had a family member pass away
I have failed a test
I have lost a friend
I have cried
I have smiled
I havent drank
I have watched all of season 2 of greys anatomy
I have hated tallahassee
I have loved tallahassee
I have questioned what I am doing with my life
I have accepted I wont ever know till im at my job
I have realized what its really like to be sad

but overall im alive so i will get over it...

<3
Suzy

"you always get hit out of no where by some wave and end up on your own..."

2006-09-03T07:41:40Z

I never write in this thing but I have to...I am trying so hard not to text, call, e-mail, message what contact i could possibly have i am trying to no do with this boy...me and him broke up and it fucking sucks...i never thought i would be so quick to get attached but damn break ups are alot harder then i thought and we were only together for 6months...this fucking sucks im so sad and hes the only person on my mind...i feel like he doesnt even care and maybe he does but ugh i hate this...its like an empty feeling...like something is missing...

shit has hit the fan and i dont know what to do...

everything in my life is just not working out how it was suppose to...just last week everything was perfect and this week i just wanna be lame and do nothing with my life...why do guys suck...why am i not worth changing for...why dont u want to be with me... i guess u neevr realize how much u care for someone until they arnt in ur life anymore...but when they have been a constant part of ur life for 6months its hard to forget that

everything just kinda sucks right now...and it probably will for awhile...but im optimistic and i keep reminding myself that everything happens for a reason...i just want this feeling to go...

"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love, but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."

Panic at the disco tickets...

2006-06-07T01:56:32Z

I have two Panic at the disco tickets available...if want them holler...its a sold out show...

luckystar04 @ 2006-04-30T20:49:00

2006-05-01T03:58:21Z

I met a boy...he makes me smile...
Im back in Orlando...
not for long..
Im going to Syria thursday till May 27th...
Its going to be pretty badass...
I come back and will be in Orlando for two or three weeks...
Im taking summer classes In tally so I have to go find a job up there...
I will see him again...and he will make me smile again...
I will be starting my Junior year...
I survived my sophmore year...
And by survived I meant i had "moments ill never remeber with friends ill never forget" it was amazing!
Im not afraid of what if's anymore...
there is no room for what ifs and in the long run What if you have nothing to lose...
Im becoming the person I have always wanted...but at the same time further away from who I want to be..
It will never make sense to anyone...it doesnt even make sense to me...
Im living in my sorority house next year...
Thats either a disaster waiting to happen or a gift in disguise...
This is my life...and my only goal is to make sure me and the people I surrond myself with are Happy...
And on the way if I learn a thing or two then I guess it will make life make a little more sense...
At the end of the day...Im still the same Suzy you have always and will forever know...

WOw

2006-03-21T03:05:08Z

havent used this thing in foreeevvverrr....just thought i would say college is going amazingly well...im super blessed...life is going amazingly well (knock on wood)...and well I love you!

The End!

this moment seems so long...

2005-08-02T01:40:53Z

things are going good...the summer is almost over which is good really good and a little bad...I mean I must say I have had a couple good times but im so over the summer I cant wait to get back to school...I am uber ready to meet new people and im rushing so hopefully its gonna be an amazing experience...I dunno I feel like there is a lot to look forward to this year...hopefully it doesnt bite me in the ass like last year...I guess we shall see...

This weekend is warped tour and im uber excited about that only because Its going to be amazing cuz none of the people im going with are going to give a shit because were awsome....and the true check out whore inside of me will come out...muhahaha

I am done working august 12!!! I cant wait because inbetween then and the time I leave I will have a week off where I can do anything I want to do like lay and bake in the sun or yea thats about it...

and i fucking love caitlin whiting. like seriously, have i ever mentioned how AMAZING SHE IS?? the only person who is MORE amazing is nicole rivera. she is like... oh man... she is the TITS. tits i say... tits! i think they have some lesbian loving going on... you know. i hear wedding bells in the future but shhhhh that's on the DL!!! not to be confused with DSL aka DICK SUCKING LIPS!! mwuahahahahahahahahahaha

<3333333333

luckystar04 @ 2005-06-01T21:56:00

2005-06-02T01:58:11Z

what the world needs now is love sweet love and the only thing that theirs just to little of...I took this personality assessment thing today and realized a lot about my self that I may not have noticed before...I am the color orange followed by blue then gold and green...

<3

luckystar04 @ 2005-03-04T10:05:00

2005-03-04T15:06:44Z

Let Spring Break Begin! Im coming home today!!! :) :) :) I havent been home for 2 months i miss Orlando!!!!

luckystar04 @ 2005-01-01T09:09:00

2005-01-01T17:11:46Z

Happy new year!

Im back in Orlando....I havent been able to call anyone when I was in VA because my phone was roaming and I no longer have no roaming....o yea I also forgott my phone at my sisters house...soo call me at home if you need me!

I feel good about this year...alot is going to happen and change..Im determined...

Later Dayz!

ooohhh myy goosshhh

2004-10-28T04:33:56Z

I am so fed up with this fucking place...I can not stand it...Im not even sad or depressed (ok just a little bit) but now I am just fucking angry...I am a nice fun person, if I dont meet people I am seriously going to go nuts...why dont people talk to me..why havent i met anyone...Why do people think im retarded...yea I know people but they are not my friends..they are other peoples friends who so happen to know me only because I know there friend..I dunno its a big tree that fucking sucks...do you know how it feels to feel like you have no one besides Katie..I think if I didnt have katie here i would go insane..she is the only person who can seriously understand my anger right now because she is going through the same thing....FUCK....its funny because I wanted to go to FSU so much and everyone says its great...fuck that...sometimes I wish I didnt sell my self out and not apply to UF...who knows maybe people would flock to me...and I know i have to try to and i do..so hard....I just do not know what else to say...I dont know what else to do....something has to change and something has to change soon or else I dont know what im going to do with myself......

thats all I have to fucking say!

Later Days...

and we all fall down again...

2004-10-17T22:02:09Z

Everything is going ok, I am becoming the ideal student...or atleast me and Katie are trying to be..here were the steps to becoming the ideal student:

1. Nice hair- went to the hairdresser, didnt get what I wanted it, took matters in my own hands and messed it up.

2. Doing good in school- so far my efforts are doing alright thankgod, takes a lot of trying...

3. work out and get a nice body- Working out, isnt working out...the results take so long! but none the less I am still working out.

4. Meet people- Im so depressed, why doesnt anyone talk to me, or approach me...ew! But im not giving up hope, I still have time and Im gonna meet alot of people

5- Getting involved- One thing that is successfull, I Joined the public relations team for the Dance Marathon here wich raises money for Childrens Miracle Network.

Its hard work being an ideal student, today I dont know why but I am kinda sad..."I need the smell of WINTER I need its noises in my ear."

i wonder how things would be diffrent if I didnt settle for FSU, what if I did try for UF or Penn State, the school I love to death and want to go to so bad...Well its not the end and grad school hold lots of possibilites...Nicole asked me to help her in math and english, like edit her paper and thats when I realized that I definitly want to become a teacher, I love tutoring people gives me a sense of gratification..s

My Major: Elementary Education Minor: English

I want to meet people so bad, i mean i have met people here and there but nothing worth wasting my time on, I need that clique, I need that clique that I go to partys with and I need that group of friends that call me every night, Maybe its because Im so used to having that awsome group of friends in highschool that I always had stuff to do with...I just want to know so many people that I get called to hang out with diffrent people every night....I want to meet a guy, a guy who approaches me and is interested in me, so depressing....I think I am going to rush next year, it seems like the only way to truly meet people...I dunno though...

I have been craving Chili's so bad and tonight im going to eat there...

WOW forgott the big news....

MY PURSE GOT STOLEN, my purse got stolen which had my phone in it, I am going absolutly nuts without my phone, and I cant get a new one because they cost 200dollars to get a new one, its so depressing I cant talk to my parents when I want I cant call any of my friends...im so sad about that!

along with the phone the wallet, which consisted of The Social security card, credit card, fsu id, drivers license, insurance card!!! AHHH IM SO ANGRY why would any one want a fucking purse that has everyhting cancelled! damn them to hell!

I miss real food, college is such a bitch...I can not wait to get my own apartment...ahh I can cook whenever i want, this dorm experience is over, I lived it I expierenced and now im ready to get out, I Cant stand the bathroom the kitchen the room! makes me soooo BLA!!!!

I just have to keep reminding myself that im awsome..lol....as concieted as that is Its what keeps me going, I have to remind myself I am better then those drunken girls out there "ur a lush and I hate it"....

I hardly see Michele anymore which sucks, I hang out with Katie like 24/7 if she wasnt here I would hardly go out probably.....Nicole says im losing touch with her but everything is good with that, my roomate same ol same ol shes a busy sorority girl...Ian doesnt like me because I say what I feel when I feel it and i say it to him, all which is negative I dont mean to and Im going to trry to stop, Riley I doubt even likes hanging out with me and my friends anymore, like the only way we hang out is if its in a big group which is better then nothing I guess..whatever im gonna get over it....I guess I have met some interesting people here but the question is can they same the same thing about me?

ummm yea well thats my update for anyone who reads this....I miss everyone!!!

**o yea still definitly looking for a TBS ticket!**

Later Dayz...

luckystar04 @ 2004-10-04T01:43:00

2004-10-04T05:44:51Z

TAKING BACK SUNDAY TICKETS, PLEASE ANYONE HAVE ANY EXTRA'S OR KNOW OF ANYONE WITH ANY EXTRAS...PLEASE ITS BAD ENOUGH I LIVE IN TALLAHASSEE WHERE NO CONCERTS COME...DONT DEPRIVE ME!!! TAKING BACK SUNDAY TICKET! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

IM ME: LCKYSTAR213

CALL ME: 3219462023

COMMENT: COMMENT

PLEASE I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER!

Later Dayz...

Wondering if what if is the worst thing there is...

2004-09-29T05:00:51Z

Why hello...I sit here writing with alot on my mind....I almost came to a point in my life were I actually thought I was destined to be lonley, then I met someone in college and I feel for him, bad....I was slightly convinced he liked me to...all of a sudden a new girl in his life that Im not sure or not but I think they are techincally dating, I didnt force myself to like him, I didnt expect to like him, and in the end I think that is why I liked him as much as I did....when I see them I get angry because I wish sometimes that, that was me..and its not...And then I question if Im good for any guy, especially his friends who is extremly cute...but I doubt he would go for me...I sometimes just feel like that unexpected thing happens once in awhile, and that once just passed by me...I want someone to like me, better yet that someone who does like me I want to actually like back...College is the time for dating and relationships...None, zip, nada.....Maybe I need a new haircut WHAT CAN U DO WITH CURLY HAIR! please tell me now i hate it with a passion that burns deep down inside my soul...I know i cant expect it because it will happen when I least expect it, but for once I would want it to work out for the best, I want that kiss that actaully means somehting...ya know...ewwww Im definitly just rambling on now and its all nonsense..

I have a lot of goals here, one in which is to meet people and another is shcool..

I have declared my major: Elementary Education with a minor in english..Im excited because I think I am almost sure thats what I want to do...I am trying to so hard to do good in my math class, I spend 2hours or more a day going over the practise quizes she gives us and what not.I want to prove to everyone and more to myself that I Can do good in school, I want my dad to be so proud, i want him to know that I Can do it and that being away from home I can survive...I will... I am now going ot try to meet one new person a day, and join more clubs and attend more activities..Clubs are not only helpful to meet people but sometimes u need diversity, cant just hang out with the same people all the time.....I want to be called up and invited to parties and diffrent groups of people..So far I am slowly establishing that crew I want, Me and Abbe decided that its going to be Me, and her and Nicole and Michele and Katie and a couple other girls with equal guys...we want a good crew to chill with... Tallahassee is slowly getting better, Im trying to be that posative optimistic person again...the other day I realized I really like who I am (ok this sounds really concieded but bare wiht me...) I love the fact that I can make people laugh, that when I go out with a group of people I somehow get people laughing, I as well love attention which goes with that, I love being around my friends because my friends are my confidence, I feel like I Can do anything around them...I love being the one who tells the corny jokes..and while sometimes im getting laughed at now with...in the end its ok because i got you to laugh..Im so witty (lol)... Im really hungry now..I really want Jimmy Johns...their subs are so good! hmm maybe Katie will go with me now or somehting...lol... Ok that paragraph above was myself esteem booster, while I love my personality its more of the physical physique (sp) Im not happy with...but wiht time I tell u, with time... this is extremly long but I have nothing else to do!

IF ANYONE HAS ANY SUGGESTIONS ON THE WHOL CURLY HAIR CUT...HOW I SHOULD CUT MY HAIR, PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT...

IF ANYONY HAS ANY EXTRA TBS TICKETS I CAN BUY OR KNOW OF ANYONE WHO HAS ONE..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT AND TELL ME...

Later Days...

luckystar04 @ 2004-09-23T13:53:00

2004-09-23T17:53:08Z

I really need a taking back sunday ticket! PLEASE IF ANYONE KNOWS OF ANYONE WHO HAS ONE OR WHERE I CAN GET ONE!!! Lckystar213, 321-946-2023!

luckystar04 @ 2004-09-11T13:30:00

2004-09-11T17:34:36Z

I have come to such a low...I hate it here, I hate everything about this place, I hate the people, I hate partying all the fucking time,
I hate how I will never find friends like the ones I left behind,
I hate how I miss my family so bad,
I hate how I havent eaten a good meal in three weeks,
I hate how hard it is to get involved in clubs,
I hate my room and how it doesnt feel like home,
I hate how I try so hard to be posative but the negative just keep winning,
I hate how their are so many girls at this fucking school,
I hate it all!

So does this answer the question on how FSU is?

It was suppose to be so much better, I was suppose to go crazy and have the best time of my life...what happend in between my dream world and reality?

luckystar04 @ 2004-07-11T12:30:00

2004-07-11T16:28:39Z

FRIENDS ONLY...COMMENT TO BE ADDED ADDED

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2004-07-07T15:01:58Z

So college life...I wish I didnt come here with such high expectations about everything and everyone....I defiinitly am very disapointed...

First week- Was bad...I was extremly homesick...no one is friendly....I hate how all the girls look like they just walked out of an abercrombie magazine (clothes wise)

I went home for the weekend...thank god...I dont think I would have been able to stay here for the weekend...

Yesterday I was ok I wasnt as homesick....today I am horribly homesick..all I want to do is cry....

I didnt realize how much I miss orlando till I had to leave it...I miss my house and bed....especially my friends...everyone sucks here!

Hopefully today will turn around...who knows....
Hopefully tomorrow will be better...

I miss everyone!

Later Dayz.....

luckystar04 @ 2004-06-30T11:23:00

2004-06-30T15:21:26Z

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2004-06-29T04:15:21Z

Today was a good day..it was my first day of classes and it went very well...I think that I can manage to do good im both of them...the intro to criminology sounds very very interesting...so today with michelle in our search for people to meet and our bordem we come across like 5 HILARIOUS guys...three which are cute..one who is very quiet another who is missin a little in the head and the best one who of corse has a gf..but we had a good time...

right now its 12:14am and I miss my parents and my house unbelievably right now...I miss everything the most at night..I think its because its the only time I have to actually think about everything...I also miss my parents the most when im eating alone..I hate being alone...

I guess we shall see what tomorrow has to hold!

Later Dayz...

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remeber....

2004-06-18T03:55:26Z

The concert was amazing!!!!! I think..no wait i lied..I KNOW..it was the best concert I have ever been to...I havent been to alot of concerts but I have been to a few and this was just amazing...Get Up Kids=Excellent... Thrice= Impressive I liked them and then none other then the...

MUSICAL GENIUS Chris Carrabba...Dashboard Confessionals will remain an amazing band no matter how big they get..I never screamed so loud at a concert...they played their new song Vinidcated....the part were it goes "I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw before" I got really like emotional and teary eyed...why i dont know but that line is just so amazing..and then of corse the last song Hands down i got even more teary eyed...

It was amazing..I wouldnt have had this night any diffrent

luckystar04 @ 2004-06-16T01:06:00

2004-06-16T05:04:22Z

Anyone going to the Dashboard show the 17th!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!

luckystar04 @ 2004-06-14T00:21:00

2004-06-14T04:19:13Z

I have so much enerygy and nothing to do with it!!! AHHHHHH

South Carolina come on and raise up..

2004-06-09T23:32:15Z

Today was a very very good fun day..me and caitlin, christina and Leo went to Water Mania...yes the slums of the water parks..haha still had a lot of fun doing nothing really..so heres a funny story

Yesterday when I was working I saw this blond hair kid with blue eyes and I was like wowzers...hes a cutie..wait I walk in the park today and who do I see but the same kid...so long story short after much staring back and forth with everyone we end up meeting him and his brother and they became our buddys..Quinn and KC....Quinn...he was the cute one...yea so we ended our day there..said good bye got some wendys and now Im here...I had alot of fun..just what I needed...

Everyday I hang out with people Caitlin in specific cuz she is basically who I hang out with most the time I get more sad because my days are getting shorter and Im so scared to leave....16 Days left! Enough sadness..

Tonight I say goodbye to my friend Andy he leaves for RI..hes such an awsome good kid...hes gonna have an awsome life and find some girl who truly deserves him!

ok well im out...
Much Love!
Later Dayz

luckystar04 @ 2004-06-04T11:00:00

2004-06-04T14:58:31Z

I am so bored...I cant go anywhere and I dont work because I got my teeth pulled yesterday and they hurt...No one has come to visit me and im really bored..some one needs to entertain me..I think I will begin writing my musical today....then when it is complete I will send it off to brodway and live out my dreams..I want to see a musical so bad..Maybe I can talk my brother into buying me tickets for the Producers...even though they are really expensive..I dont care I wanna see a musical in NewYork...So if you want to be a character in my musical..haha..just comment and maybe I can add you in...hmm I have to look for scholarships today and to bad I dont even have my diploma yet cuz I havent been to school to take care of my obligations...LAME...their is so much to do so little time...

June 15- NFG concert (anyone want to go with me?)
June 16- Chillin wit my homie!
June 17- Dashboard show cuz they stopped selling tickets for the 18th..bastards
June 22- Yellowcard

Ahhhh I need money..O Im going to play the loto tonight...I hope I win!

*Later Dayz*

Hollaaaaaa

2004-06-03T04:46:32Z

Im so pimp..how many people can say they saw Kayne West LIVE...I CAN! muhahahaha..it was my friends 18th b-day and we took her to see him..it was soo alot of fun..Jay-z was also there..he came out on stage and the crowd went wild..I had a good time..I was a little bored but ya know I still had alot of fun....I love those mtv tapings!..New Found glory is coming June 15 I really wanna go..but Im going out June 16 and then June 18 is DC which Im going to..we shall see...

*22days and counting till I leave for college....

So does anyone want to go to Watermania for FREE with friends 3friends...Catch..yes their is a catch you have to entertain me and make my day wonderful..haha...so hit me up if u wanna go! Lckystar213

*Later Dayz*

*~Suzy~*