|"you always get hit out of no where by some wave and end up on your own..."
||[Sep. 3rd, 2006|03:34 am]
I never write in this thing but I have to...I am trying so hard not to text, call, e-mail, message what contact i could possibly have i am trying to no do with this boy...me and him broke up and it fucking sucks...i never thought i would be so quick to get attached but damn break ups are alot harder then i thought and we were only together for 6months...this fucking sucks im so sad and hes the only person on my mind...i feel like he doesnt even care and maybe he does but ugh i hate this...its like an empty feeling...like something is missing...
shit has hit the fan and i dont know what to do...
everything in my life is just not working out how it was suppose to...just last week everything was perfect and this week i just wanna be lame and do nothing with my life...why do guys suck...why am i not worth changing for...why dont u want to be with me... i guess u neevr realize how much u care for someone until they arnt in ur life anymore...but when they have been a constant part of ur life for 6months its hard to forget that
everything just kinda sucks right now...and it probably will for awhile...but im optimistic and i keep reminding myself that everything happens for a reason...i just want this feeling to go...
"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love, but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."